No los culpo... por estar asustados, yo también lo estoy. Me daba miedo que, la gente averiguara que soy gay y ahora, mmm, no puedo ocultarlo más. So-soy un leproso... un marginado... un intocable. Nadie me mirará. Nadie me tocará.
Quiero odiar a todo el mundo, por tratarme de esta manera. Pero cómo... ¿Cómo puedo odiarlos por estar asustados? Cuando soy yo el que está viviendo una mentira,
That's my point. That's why we can't forget it. No matter how much time has passed, these things still affect us and the world we live in. If you don't pay attention to the past, you'll never understand the future. It's all linked together. You see what I'm saying?
Mi vida ahora es muy distinta. Muy diferente a lo que hubiese imaginado para mi. Pero he aprendido algo muy importante: no porque sea distinta significa que sea mala. No porque en nuestra vida acontezca algo terrible significa que en nuestro futuro no volverán a haber alegrías.
Dear Friend, I like to start my notes to you as if we're already in the middle of a conversation. I pretend that we're the oldest and dearest friends, as opposed to what we actually are, people who don't know each other's names…and met in a chat room where we both claimed we'd never been before. What will NY152 say today, I wonder. I turn on my computer, I wait impatiently as it connects, I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: “You've got mail.” I hear nothing, not even a sound on the streets of New York, just the beat of my own heart. I have mail. From you.
No sería maravilloso que yo pudiera pasarte todos mis silbidos y entonces nunca más me comportaria mal y tu si... ¡Todo el tiempo! ¡Y ambos seriamos felices! Pero, pensandolo bien, debo advertirte que cuando obtienes el placer de decir lo que realmente querias decir en el momento en que debias decirlo... el remordimiento es inevitable....
Do you ever feel you become the worst version of yourself? That a Pandora’s box of all the secret, hateful parts, your arrogance, your spite, your condescension, has sprung open? Someone provokes you, and instead of just smiling and moving on, ya zing them. “Hello, it’s Mr. Nasty.” I’m sure you have no idea what I’m talking about.
Wouldn’t it be wonderful if I could pass all my zingers to you, and then I would never behave badly, and you could behave badly…all the time! And we’d both be happy! But then, on the other hand, I must warn you, that when you finally have the pleasure of saying the thing you mean to say at the moment you mean to say it…remorse inevitably follows. …
it's not up to me anymore, if you want me in your life, you'll find a way to put me there
Well, he told me his problems. It was about some other girl. I told him if he liked her, go for it. If it didn’t work, well he should Know better than anyone how Easy it is to get over someone. That’s when he asked what I was going on about. I reminded him that he got over me. He laughed out loud and said, Didn’t you wonder why we Barely talk anymore? I’m still crazy about you.
everyone has problems its how you deal with them that seperates you from everyone else.
i don't even remember the season.
i just know that it was the first time i felt like i belonged someplace.
If you don't tell her how you feel she'll find some other guy that will tell her all the things that she only ever wanted to hear from you
So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things.
stop with all the mixed signals. you either want me or you don't. pick one.
He's the reason I'm messed up, the reason I can't get myself into another relationship. No matter how hard I try, no matter how bad I want to. I'm scared. I'm not scared of getting hurt, I'm scared of hurting someone else. Because I could never care for anyone, the way I cared about him
Maybe some people aren't meant to be in our lives forever. Maybe some are just passing through to teach us a lesson
Smile for the camera, you look soo pretty when you're pretending everything is okay.
Hola extraño, ¿recuerdas cuando solíamos ser mejores amigos?
hey there stranger do you remember when we use to be best friends?
With friendship it doesn't matter how long you've known each other, or how many fights you got into. what matters is who said "I'll be there for you" and who proved it.
The reason so many people find it so hard to be happy is that they will always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.
If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author and everyday you have the opportunity to write a new page.
[ SheWalkedAwayQuotes ]
La primera vez que te conoci nunca pensé que te amaría.
&& when I first met you
I never would have imagined that
I would have such strong feelings for you
I never would have thought
that I would have
or miss being by your side
or get butterflies in my stomach
when someone mentions
when I first met you
I never thought that I would love you
You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story.
Mi amigo, si pudiera darte una cosa, desearía para ti la habilidad de verte a ti mismo como los otros te ven, así te darías cuenta de la persona verdaderamente especial que eres.
My friend, if I could give you one thing I would wish for you the ability to see yourself as others see you, then you would realize what a truly special person you are
It's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers
The first time I saw you was the last time I saw my heart
I sometimes feel as if I'm invisible, as if no one can see me at all.
Esta vida es lo que haces de ella. No importa que, a veces vas a arruinar las cosas, es una verdad universal. Pero la parte buena es que puedes decidir como la vas a arruinar.
Las chicas serán tus amigas (actuarán como si lo fueran. Pero recuerda, algunas vienen, otras se van. Las que se quedan contigo a pesar de todo) ellas son tus verdaderas mejores amigas. No las dejes ir. También recuerda, las hermanas son las mejores amigas en el mundo.
En cuanto a amantes, bueno, ellos también vienen y van. Y cariño, odio decirlo, pero la mayoría de ellos (en realidad casi todos) van a romperte el corazón, pero no puedes rendirte porque si lo haces, nunca encontrarás a tu alma gemela. Nunca encontrarás esa mitad que te hace sentir completa y que va a por todo. Sólo porque fallaste una vez no significa que vas a fallar en todo. Sigue intentándolo, resiste y siempre, siempre, siempre, cree en ti misma, porque si no lo haces, ¿entonces quien, cariño? Así que mantén tu cabeza en alto, mantén la barbilla elevada y lo más importante de todo, sigue sonriendo, porque la vida es una cosa hermosa y hay mucho por lo que sonreír.
This life is what you make it. No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends – they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything – they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them – actually pretty much all of them- are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.
I’m the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows; Who will listen to a love song & see his face; Who will look for him wherever she goes. I’m the type of girl who doesn’t get over things easily; Who will beat herself up when someone doesn’t love her back; Who will cry herself to sleep cause she feels she’s not good enough. But I’m also the type of girl who’s strong; Who can cry her eyes out then forbid them to come back the next morning; Who will blast some old pop song & sing at the top of her lungs cause she feels like it; Who will be no one but herself.
Change is a funny thing.
We're never quite sure what we're becoming, or why.
Then one day we look at ourselves and wonder
who we are, and how we got there.
don't hate me. don't regret me. don't ever forget me. wherever you go, whatever you do. don't say i never loved you.
today i looked in the mirror and realized i look prettier when i'm happy.
worrying is a waste of time. it doesn't change anything, it just messes with your mind and steals your happiness.
'Cause qe are broken, what must we do to restore our innocense?
decirle al mundo como se siente sobre si misma.
She's not the kind of girl who likes to
tell the world about the way she feels about herself
pero dejalo ser parte de quien serás.
Don't let your past dictate who you are,
but let it be part of who you will become
Just because today is a terrible day doesn't mean
tomorrow might not be the best day of your entire
life. You just have to wake up and get there.
I can't just sit here and have coffee with you. I love you. I know the other night didn't mean for you what it did for me, but I haven't stopped thinking about you since it happened, and not because it was great- which it was- but because it was right. It was so right, and you might not see that right now, but I do, and if I have to wait until we're both 80 years old for you to see it, then I'll wait. I'm not going anywhere. This is it for me. You're it for me, and I can't pretend to feel any less than I do, I just can't
It mumblesmumbles and
I talk back.
Before I learned this language,
(I can speak English, German and Stomach now)
I used to
shut it up,
stuff it. Living out
my biggest nightmare:
OBESE.
I love it when my tummy talks to me
It growls and
I encourage...
an expressive tummy is a good tummy.
Before I learned this mind
(CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL!)
I used to
be a victim to
my biggest nightmare:
The Eager-to-Eat Syndrome
Well, I've been cured and
I love it when my tummy talks to me.
And why God didn’t bless you with her curves
You wonder why you’re the one they call fat
Do you think it’s something you deserve?
You wonder why the boys don’t like you
And why they only look at one thing
But with the others, they look at everything
You wonder why you’re not skinny.
You ask yourself how it came to this
And how you got so big
you wonder why no one said anything
And if you’ll ever win.
You’re growing colder now, too cold
You cry when you’re alone at night
And into yourself you fold
You’re crawling under your skin.
You know that if you don’t eat,
You won’t get what you really need
But maybe you’ll become skinny, and
You can make up for this gluttony and greed.
You wonder what will happen if you don’t eat
Will you die eventually because of starvation?
You tell yourself once you’re skinny, you’ll eat
But then, you start thinking in new ways
You can never be too skinny
You’d rather die than be fat
In this game, you have to be winning
Even if it means losing life for that.
Dance on tiptoe, it’d be lovely!
You’d pick me up and spin me around thinking nothing of it.
Admire my skeleton, dear.
I could drink lots of coffee.
Smoke lots of cigarettes.
Drink diet pepsi and eat grapefruit!
This is going to be fantastic!
I promise you.
But I will vomit.
I will starve.
I will hurt.
My teeth will fall out pretty collection.
My hair all over the floor--perhaps I can make a dress?
Maybe I’ll be so tiny, I’ll just fall through your fingers.
"Why can't I be skinny? Being pretty sounds so fun"
A girl surrounded with mirrors suddenly looks at her clothes
"Why can't I be popular? Is this really a size one?"
A girl looks all around her and decides what to do
"I should look like the other girls, not like this"
A girl looks all around her and goes to the other room
"Diet pills? Will that make a zero fit?"
A girl gets hooked on drugs who is barely seventeen
Now she spends her days throwing up her self esteem.
Hollywood is a place where they'll pay you a thousand dollars for a kiss and fifty cents for your soul
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will make me go in a corner and cry by myself for hours
dear diary
I don't think, I can ever be pretty.
I ate fifteen calories more than I should today, my mum says I have to go to the doctor because I never eat anything, I got a B minus in English … it seems like no matter what I do, it's wrong.
my mum just doesn't get why I don't like to eat their food. she doesn't see, that I can't be as ugly and fat as she is – she can't see, how pretty my bones are beginning to look, or how imperfect my body still is. no-one understands me.
I'm so disgusted by myself, but the starvation keeps me sane.
I have to buy some new sweaters to wear at the doctor's tomorrow, so he can't see how I'm getting closer to my ideal weight. 35 kg, here I come.
nighty night
your anna.
You need to get over yourself. You need to let go of the past, because its literally, and figuratively killing you. You told yourself that you'd never let your emotions get to you, and you were wrong.
Look at yourself in the mirror and pretend that you like whats there.
You wake up every day with a headache, so you take a drink to ease the pain. You get to the kitchen and realize that you're now an alcoholic - congratulations. Your cell phone rings, and you get excited - until you see that its just your calendar, reminding you that today marks 200 days of being stupid and foolish. You read the note your roommate has left you, and you throw it away anyway, because it doesnt really matter.
You're stuck, and its all because you can't let go.
You're stuck, and its all your fault.
You're stuck, and you're not going to solve it like this.
Every day, you try to justify your existence. Every day, you get up, and work, and get home, and start a fist fight. Every day, you wake up with bruises and black eyes, and sore wrists, because you are trying to numb the pain deep on the inside.
What have you become? Look in the mirror - do you like whats there?
I miss the old us. I miss the us that was fine to be left alone for weeks at a time - hidden in a mass of video games and new comics. I miss the us that wasn't dependent on another person. I miss the us that wasn't moping, and sad, and angry. I miss just being us.
So, keep that in mind the next time you look in the mirror. That now, you've got yourself to worry about. The real you.
From,
You
Abzurdah - Cielo Latini
Una Muchacha camina al borde del abismo. Cielo Latini, niña precoz, sensible y creativa, educada en una familia normal, siempre una enfant terrible fascinada por el arte y por la muerte, cuenta como si adolescencia fue un descenso a los infiernos.
La desfloración a los 14 años, la dependencia amorosa y sexual de un hombre mucho mayo que ella, la fascinación con la muerte, la bulimia y la anorexia, la creación del blog "mecomoami" en el que miles de adolescentes hacian publico su derecho a ser anoréxicas, los intentos de suicidio, la autoflagelación. Y finalmente, la resurrección, la cura, a través de la palabra.
Nota propia: lo recomiendo y no tanto, me lo he leído un montón de veces y cada vez obtengo una opinión distinta de la autora. Latini tiene una imagen rara del mundo y de como uno debe actuar, eso está claro, así que si vas a leerlo, valor porque el libro es bastante sufrido, pesimista y poco bonito.
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Now I’m grounded, not allowed to drive, and getting chauffeured around by a demon whose driver’s license is dubious at best. Plus, he tells me, when one portal closes— another one opens…
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